What is the most powerful affirmation?
“I don’t know.”
This agnosticism may require the most faith, the most courage. It is a scary thing to accept that you don’t know, and yet in accepting this, fear often melts away. You are held together by your ignorance.
Cogito ergo sum? All I pretend to know is that I am here at some level; the rest is dark mystery. I don’t need to define it, yet I have to. I pull and play with it. I cast my thoughts and analysis onto it and see how it feels. My mere being forces me to shape it; like the moon builds castles in the sand.
If I stop to look, I know I cannot fathom it, and I have no need for certainty. I wear my ignorance like a blanket, and it holds me. The warm weight of infinity boxes me in. Anything could be beyond these walls.
Already I’ve built another tower on the shore. Often I feel myself only a tiny part of my own creation. A reflection in a tide pool; so lost in my world that I see no darkness. Other times I know that I’ve only built a fire, casting my light into the dark expanse. I step out into the shadows and its all there, holding everything, yet never full.